I’m going to take a bit of a departure from writing about dealing with my PTSD. There’s only so many times you can say that I’m feeling pretty bleh. As it’s relatively early in my treatment, I’m going to give y’all a breather and talk about something else.
I want to talk about writing. It’s something I obviously love. If I didn’t I wouldn’t spend my time writing this blog. More importantly, I love screenwriting. It’s something that I’ve had a passion for. I’ve always loved movies. There’s something about watching a movie and having it draw you into their experience that is amazing. It’s something that enraptured me as a child. As I’ve grown up, I’ve never lost that love for it.
I started doing the schooling for it. As I was doing it, I realized that I suck as a director. I’m not assertive enough to tell actors they need to do this. Granted, a large part of that is me being shy.
The one thing I seemed to excel at is screenwriting. There’s something about writing out the script, coming up with believable and witty dialogue that fulfills me in a way I can’t quite explain. It’s something that just seems to flow from me.
And it’s something that other writers say that I do well. I had a screenwriting teacher tell me I should be a novelist after I read the treatment for a screenplay to my class.
Now, I’m not sure about being a novelist. I don’t know if I would represent well as a novelist. I like crafting dialogue. I get less enjoyment out of the writing the rest. But maybe I have that skill. It’s something I never thought of. I never allowed myself to think about it. Maybe because, to me, my screenwriting is completely important to me.
Does that mean that I’m thinking of jumping into the novel ring? I don’t know. I’ve been told I could do it, but do I want to.
Right now I want to work on my screenplay. I’m still working on editing my first piece because… well… because I hate editing. I can do it, but I think I edit faster on a deadline.
So, who knows… maybe I’ll write a novel at some point, but at this point I’m still with my passion: screenwriting.